Tonight I sat on my swing and had a barrel fire under the full moon. It would have been nicer if the temp was 48 but it was 78! I sat and fed my sick chicken karo syrup while Diamond danced around.
I took these pix.
I am reviewing my year of injuries, survival and hell.... trying to look forward to the next week of subbing.
Trying to evaluate my life with this unexpungeable criminal record that affects my being hired as a teacher. I am trying to move forward. 9 years ago I got into an altercation with a cop 2 days before my mom died. I was very stressed & emotional. I had nursed her for the whole year and had just got divorced too. He "administered" a strangle hold cos he was not trained in skills to calm me down. He was 23 and an inexperienced asshole trying to get his brownie points. As he choked me I swung my arm out and grazed his face. It wasn't deliberate. Its a normal reaction of "protection". I was scared. He had a 1/2" graze on his face. The police report make me look like a felonious monster.
Sometimes while I am subbing high school, a young person may start to lose it and act out. I tell him (or her) to relax and take deep breaths instead of acting out and getting in trouble. I pay attention. I don't want him or her to end up like me with a degree and a busted career; if it is appropriate, I tell them what happened to me. It may help them.
Well, tomorrow I am off to Truvey's ranch... I will visit with my best friend,
pick more pecans & pray for peace and at least for a menial job so I can pay my mortgage & survive.
6 comments:
Incredible harvest moon tonight after walking through the red reds and golds of those beautiful palets left behind by those trees...and 68 degrees...beautiful...
Those pics are incredible. I always love gazing at the full moon. I'm so sorry you had that experience. It's so sad that one moment in time can affect the rest of your life. You really seem like a good person, and I hope you can get that removed so you can move forward with your life!
enjoy
and good luck with the problems
loved the pix
cheers
*laughing* Those are brilliant pictures, and the first one is too funny for words! Intense!
By the way a sub is called vikarlærer, in norwegian. Vikar is substitute and lærer is teacher.
Hope you had a great time at the ranch. Sounds fantastic to go to a real ranch... I'd love that. Exciting
Love Eilen xxx
Nina, it's a shame you aren't in congress, you could check yourself into a rehab center, claim you're an alcoholic, and have all forgiven. But, I guess that's what happens when the criminals make the laws and enforce them. Beautiful pics!!
Nina, I will keep you in my prayers. Life sure is not fair!
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